Slowly getting back to the grind

If you’ve read all of my blogs thus far you have witnessed my extreme approach to being productive and successful. I am proud to announce that I will be getting back to that very shortly. I’d like to say that leg pain is what’s been holding me back from this, but really it’s just been being lazy. With school coming to an end, I keep saying to myself oh there’s just a lot going on, but that’s barely true. I am holding myself back. 

Yes, it’s true that I have been having leg pain and that it gets worse from overuse, but it also gets better from proper exercise and being active. One week when the pain got so bad I just laid in bed only to find out that it was making the pain worse. I quickly got back to a scheduled routine and stopped complaining. This pain management video informed me that there was only so much we could do to manage it https://youtu.be/QG4SKNZOJzE  The best we can do is get back to life and try not to let it affect us. The same is true for my injury, I have to manage it, but most importantly I have to get back to life. 

Recently my motivation has been dwindling, I find myself puttering around for hours just to procrastinate doing simple things. Granted I’m a productive procrastinator, but is obsessively cleaning really all that productive? I avoid doing my therapy sometimes not even because of my pain, but simply because I don’t want to. Not my scheduled therapy, those sessions are non-negotiable, but when I have time on my own to do therapy or something else I usually choose something else. 

Slowly I have been finding myself. Replacing bad habits with good ones and holding myself more accountable. Here are some things I tell myself. You need to drink more water. You need to do more physical therapy. You need to work on your hobbies, art, YouTube, and blogging. You need to judge people less. You need to be more grateful. These are probably the most common ideas my mind goes back to. 

Don’t get me wrong through all of this I thoroughly enjoy myself. As I write this I am on the beach with some friends. They carried me out on a giant matt. It’s awesome, one of the first times I’m feeling sand on my feet since the accident. I have a decent balance of things going on in my life. Something pretty impressive for a teenage paraplegic. This is exactly what I have been learning lately, everything in life is a balance. The ideal is somewhere in the middle. So as I get back to being productive I will make sure there is a good balance, so I can enjoy life and not get burnt out at the same time.