What I expect of myself

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I expect to do more than I think I can. I know that everything I have learned about limits is from others and as a result the limits I put on myself are merely constructs of other people’s thoughts. Things I view as possible are merely what I have observed others achieving. Things I view as impossible are merely things I haven’t observed others achieving. I have always heard “don’t judge yourself based upon others’ success”. I now understand what they are talking about.

I expect to do what is important. What is important to me? Helping people. How do I help people? Honestly, I am still trying to figure that part out. I have continued my journey of learning to walk again, which inspires people. I have also started doing a blog and audio journal every week to document my thoughts and ideas. This will help me write a book that will inspire people. While those have been obvious ways to help, I’m still trying to figure out the best way I can help. 

I expect to do what is harder and not take the easy way out. What does this look like? Doing therapy when I am exhausted. Breaking bad habits and practicing good ones. Setting higher standards for myself than the people around me. Being honest with myself and apologizing when I mess up. Being compassionate towards others, especially those who have hurt me. I know that as I practice it will get easier to do the hard thing. 

I expect to take action immediately. I do this by finding “the first step”. If you force yourself to take the first step, nothing can ever be put on the back burner. All of these expectations I have of myself mean nothing unless I actively pursue them. 

I expect to be the person I want to be. I want to be compassionate. I want to be selfless. I want to be successful. I want to be courageous. The only logical way any of these things will happen is if I get rid of self limiting beliefs, focus on what is important, make the harder decision, and do it immediately.